Its not easy for me to be honest…that is a hard statement to write and even harder to realize its truth….
In my life, I have done a pretty good job at hiding my true identity. I’ve quickly learned that who I am and what I believe doesn’t often fit with so much of the rest of the world, so I’ve determined by default that eventually my best course of action is to keep it secret, or even worse agree with the masses to “fit in”.
And it’s not so much a matter of a conscious choice I’ve made as it is my own survival mechanism.
Don’t believe for a second that I intentionally try to deceive people. It’s not that at all. It’s just that when I try to talk to other people with passion regarding what I have seen, what I have experienced, what I believe, the world, for the most part they just don’t get it. People will often smile politely, make a comment as best they can, and then move on.
So over time it becomes easier for me to stop sharing. And stop challenging myself. And that’s when I get stuck, and discouraged, and lots of times in my life I have quit.
Here is what I have learned-
I can’t and won’t stop the challenges. I must keep moving forward and doing things that are important to me, even if no one else cares about them.
And if what I choose to do doesn’t work the first time, I will do it again, and again, until I conquer my fears and accomplish what God has purposed me to do, and then and only then will I ever be all that I was meant to be.
So in true resolution form- in 2014 I will be more transparent and honest- even when it’s scary for me to do so. I am going to draw attention to my time and how I spend it- I will be greatly aware of the brevity of this life. I want to number and VALUE each day. No more will I ride the coattails of what I “intended” to do, rather I will be a true man of my word who follows through on his commitments. Thanks for reading- thoughts, comments, and accountability appreciated!
This is going to be a great year- I implore you to enter into 2014 with intentionality, focus, and most importantly ACTION. Blessings-