Reflections on a year and maybe a start?..

I enjoy how Facebook reminds me of memories from the years past, I like to reminisce on status updates, and pictures from different points of my life.  I love to see how much my kids have grown, I cringe at some of my posts, and laugh at other ones- appreciating how timeless my sense of humor is..(this is where you nod in agreement).  This year is different however…I am not looking forward to the reminders of the beginning of the past year.

I want to be honest, I want to tell you all honestly what I am going through- I am just not sure I can appropriately capture the past year…It is a challenge to feel secure in the emotions that come- I don’t know how to communicate the peaks and valleys that come wave upon wave, sometimes from one moment to the next.  How can I be frustrated? Kiara is the one going through the battle…How can I be distraught? Kiara is still fighting and countless others are not…How can I celebrate the small progress when just a year ago these tasks were completed with ease now take fight, determination, and assistance.  Our faith is strong, but something I stole from Levi Lusko fits so perfectly…”hurting with hope, still hurts.”

Trials reveal foundations…so often the fingerprints of God are unseen, unacknowledged until you look back in the rearview mirror.  So much of this past year applies to what we have walked through.  Faith must be tested and tried before it becomes real in your life…

So, thinking about the past year- so many have asked how we came to find out Kiara had a brain tumor…dare I say “The beginnings of Chapter 1”…..

Halloween for Christians…..what a conundrum for so many parents.  Can our kids dress up, can they trick or treat, or should we stick to the church harvest party, or better yet turn the porch light off and hide from all the sinners?  I laugh as I write these because we have been all over the board on this issue.  Ultimately, we have settled on letting the kids dress up.  We sometimes trick or treat, we sometimes go to a church function and sometimes both.  We aim to get back home to pass out candy- the kids seem to enjoy this the most- seeing all the other kids and celebrating the cool costumes.  Keren is amazing- she speaks life and love to every trick or treater and parent, we get backstories on costumes and try to be generous with the candy. She does it with such a genuine heart, it touches people.  We are aware of the origins of Halloween, I think, unless the internet has misled me.  We also get a Christmas tree, and sometimes eat chocolate bunnies on Easter for those judging at home.  Halloween 2014 was the “tipping point” for Kiara getting diagnosed, it is such an important part of our story because in addition to realizing something was severely wrong; we met a family while we were trick or treating with some friends from church. It was a brief introduction, but one that God would use to answer prayers and be a part of our story in the days, weeks, months, and forever to come…..

I’m not sure if this is a start to a book or just a start to organizing my thoughts about the past year…anyway, thanks for reading.


12,328 days…..



As I write this, I have been alive for 12,328 days….the book pictured above was a gift to Keren and I from Richard and Sherry Wright (President & CEO and his wife of AdvoCare), and if you will let it, this book will change your life- get it and read it today.

The New Year is a time for starting over, starting fresh, making a resolve to do better, do more, achieve those goals- it is a time that most Americans become very introspective.  The book was timely for the new year, and some other things I often wonder and think about….thanks for partaking in my thoughts..

What are your dreams and are you pursuing them or have you given up on them?  I will be bold and state for most of you reading this blog that: There is more to life than what you are currently living!  The challenge is for you to find out what is missing?  What is your plan for the future?  You see, tomorrow is not promised and if today was your last day, what would your legacy be?

While your time is limited there is plenty of it if you begin living life on purpose, with a purpose!

There are 8,765 hrs in a year, roughly 2,000hrs spent working (40hr/wk), 2,190 hrs sleeping, this leaves 4,575 hrs left to do what you want.  SO, what is it that you want?  Tony Robbins once said “Life will pay whatever price you ask of it”.  Often times in our culture we don’t want to work for it, we seek the immediate reward.  We cannot put down the good in order to sacrifice and achieve the greatness God has in store for us.

As you move forward into 2013 I encourage you to take action!  Take serious self-inventory about what needs to change in your life and go about doing it.  What are you allowing in, that derails you from your goals, and dreams?  What are you reading, what are you watching, listening to, and most importantly who are you hanging around.  IT DOES MATTER, in fact more than you think.  I love this quote:

  • Watch your thoughts, they become words.
  • Watch your words, they become actions.
  • Watch your actions, they become habits.
  • Watch your habits, they become your character.
  • Watch your character, it becomes your destiny.

Lastly, who do you allow to speak truth into your life?  Not agreement, not comfort, but truth.  If you don’t have a friend, spouse, loved one, or mentor who will speak truth into your life find one.  Seek counsel (wisdom & experience) rather than opinions (ignorance).

Here is to a great 2013!  God Bless you all, now go get and read the book!  Please share your honest thoughts and feedback.